New blog

Well, so I changed blogs... blogger to wordpress. I like the latter much nicer because I have more control over the layout and stuff. :) Plus it's complicated and I'm having fun figuring it out. Haha
Anyway so....

sempresuigeneris.wordpress.com

should be it! :D
just fyi, i just exported my posts from this blog over to there so yeah.. haha

Moving... again... (AND MY 100th POST! ;D)

How often have we all had to experience that?

Well, for the third time this year, we're moving and saying goodbyes again; packing up and getting ready to leave again; anticipating and expecting God knows what again.
We had such an awesome time here for the past short but meaningful three months. I met such good friends and people who were there to support and encourage me in so many ways. I enjoyed the gift of having my own room (and bathroom).
I just started to get really comfortable here--not feeling extremely awkward talking to people, as an example of it. Yet I'm being uprooted again; I'm not even over the pain of leaving Albania. Cutting back into the wound much?
Not complaining or anything, but I've got to admit this stinks. Yes, God's using this hard time to let me grow more mature yada yada and frankly I'm thankful for it. But what to do with all these mixed feelings?

I feel as empty and lifeless as my beloved room right now.

(and yay for this being my 100th post. maybe i should've picked a less depressing subject. but whatev.)

Crazy

Ok, so like two nights ago... (more like early early mornings like... eh... 2-ish??) I sent off an e-mail to a certain someone feeling all so excited about it. You have no idea how much like an idiot I felt the second I opened my eyes.

You're probably wondering what kind of e-mail it was. So it was full of regret, apology, and nostalgia.
As stupid as I feel, I guess it was the right thing to do. All I have to do now is wait for a reply but the wait's killing me. GAH
*no, it wasn't a love letter*

I turn on the music to drown out all else... every little noise and every little thought... to give my heart a chance to tell me something...

What time is it? Summer time!

So far my summer vacation rating has gone from 9/10 to 2/10. Why?
Firstly, because it rained and now it's cold. Second, because I had to wake up early just to go and help out at a school. Ok ok, don't get me wrong. I love helping out there but it's just not an exciting way to start out my break ya know? I mean, being volunteered is starting to get on my nerves now. My mom's gonna make me go tomorrow again. ㅠㅠ Come ON. I need to clean my room and GET A LIFE. I don't have the time to go over and run errands for hours. Those things were ok when I had time to kill. I can't afford to do that now.
Anyway... I've got exactly... 24 days before I leave Albania. I've got a room to clean and friends to hang out with. That take a long time. So just GARGH!