Holy moly!

But it's started again.
It's just so hard to breathe.
I feel like there's a huge, gaping, abyss inside my heart... slowly bleeding out fear.
Laughter bursts out of my very lips, masking the brewing dread within.
Yet, a light of hope and promise slowly drags me out of this misery.
Days leak away as seconds sift through like sand.
The churning storm of excitement and confusion thunders and bolts of seclusion fly out
Hour by hour, this beating source of life grows heavier and heavier...