내 맘을 아냐고 (Feat. 김현중, 태혜영 (미스에스) , U주)- MJ

내 맘을 아냐고

가슴 찢어지는 내 맘 너는 알까
사랑앞에 무릎 꿇는 내 맘 알까
너란 여자땜에 우는 나를 아냐고
니가 내 맘을 아냐고

항상 꺼져있는 전화기 또 답장없는 메세지
아무것도 못해 가만히 니 번호를 눌러 또다시
아닌줄 알면서도 심장이 널 붙잡고서 놓아주질 않잖아
나 어떻게 살아

매일같이 독한 술을 계속 마시고
어렵게 끊었던 담배를 다시 입에 물어
무엇보다 쓰디쓴 내 기억에 눈물을 짖고
바보처럼 살아가 너 이런 내 맘 알아

차라리 차라리 시작조차 말껄 그랬어
사랑이 사람이 어떻게 그렇게 변하니
만남이 이별을 기억하고 다시 찾아와
이 가슴 찢어놓고 그냥 가려하잖아

가지마 사랑아 날 두고 그냥 떠나지마
가지마 사랑아 아직 내가 여기 있잖아
부탁이야 제발 돌아와 내게 돌아와
너 없인 하루도 살아갈 자신 없어

가슴 찢어지는 내 맘 너는 알까
사랑앞에 무릎 꿇는 내 맘 알까
너란 여자땜에 우는 나를 아냐고
니가 내 맘을 아냐고

항상 꺼져있는 전화기 또 답장없는 메세지
어디서 넌 뭘하는지 왜 이렇게 연락 안돼니
친구들 내게 말해 끝난 사랑이라고
무슨 말이라도 해봐 단 한마디라도

차라리 차라리 시작하지 말 껄 그랬어
사랑이 사람이 어떻게 그렇게 변하니
만남이 이별을 기억하고 다시 찾아와
내 가슴 도려내고 그냥 가려 하잖아

가슴 찢어지는 내맘 너는 알까
사랑앞에 무릎 꿇는 내맘 알까
너란 남자땜에 우는 나를 아냐고
니가 내 맘을 아냐고

차라리 차라리 시작조차 말 껄 그랬어
차라리 차라리 좀 더 잘해줄껄 그랬어
차라리 차라리 니가 아니였음 좋겠어
숨조차 쉴수 없어 미칠것 같으니까

가지마 사랑아 날 두고 그냥 떠나지마
가지마 사랑아 아직 내가 여기있잖아
가지마 사랑아 날 두고 그냥 떠나지마
가지마 사랑아 아직 내가 여기 있잖아

가슴 찢어지는 내 맘 너는 알까
사랑앞에 무릎 꿇는 내 맘 알까
너란 사람땜에 우는 나를 아냐고
니가 내 맘을 아냐고

가슴 찢어지는 내맘 너는 알까
사랑앞에 무릎 꿇는 내 맘 알까
너란 사람땜에 우는 나를 아냐고
니가 내 맘을 아냐고
           

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only one thing i can do
only one thing i can say

i love you

then i'll walk away...

"nOt-qUite-PerFect mArriage PrOposaLs"

http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/articletkt.aspx?cp-documentid=23010913


It Was a Gas
My fiance planned a trip to a ski resort in Pennsylvania, and had intended to ask me to marry him on a sleigh ride, but a heat wave had melted almost all the snow. He then decided he would just take me on a carriage ride, thinking it was going to be very romantic. NO! The horses started farting! And shedding! We had horsehair in our mouths and could smell farts the whole time. We finished the ride, and Jimmy wanted me to follow him to the edge of the mountain, but because of the rain, everything was muddy, so I said, "No, thanks, I'll stay over here!" He was so frustrated, he finally just plopped down on his knee right there in the mud and asked me to marry him!
The Houdini of Engagement Rings
Jordan and his family took me out for my birthday dinner at a restaurant that has live music. At one point, the bandleader said, "I hear there's a birthday in the house tonight! Why don't you come on up here!" Jordan went with me. After they played "Happy Birthday," he pulled a tiny ring box out of his pocket, knelt down on one knee, opened it, and...the ring was missing! Jordan's mother realized she had given him the wrong ring box from her big, overstuffed purse. A few of my friends quickly dumped the contents of her purse onto the table searching for the correct box. Eventually it was found, delivered to Jordan, and he was able to "correctly" propose!
Receipt Fail
My fiance had stopped to pick up the ring on his way home from work. Earlier that day, I had given him the credit card to get gas for his car, and when he got home, I asked him for the receipt so I could put it in our budget. But instead of giving me the gas station receipt, he gave me the ring receipt! I looked at it and smiled, then asked him for the "real" receipt. He just looked at me and said, "No, I didn't!" and we both laughed. He wasn't planning on proposing to me for a couple more days because he had a big, romantic day planned, but I told him that it didn't matter how it happened as long as I got him for the rest of my life!
Thwarted by a Bike
For the first two mornings of our vacation, Nick asked me to get up and take a walk before 8 a.m. -- not a good idea in my mind. Finally, I agreed to a morning bike ride to the beach, but the chain kept popping off my bike. Twenty minutes later, we got the chain back on, but we were covered in grease and it was in the 90s, so we were super-hot. I wanted to go home and shower, but Nick insisted we could get the grease off with salt water. Once we got down to the beach, he got down on one knee and proposed. Now the whole thing finally made sense to me!
Just the 2 of Us...and a Bear
We went to hike in the Pocono Mountains for a weekend. Eric decided that the short trail up the mountain was "too short," so we took the longer one. Hours later, in 95-degree heat and 100-percent humidity, I wasn't so into this hike anymore. We finally reached the top of the mountain, and just when Eric thought it was a good time to pop the question, we heard people behind us yell, "Bear! Here he comes!" And everyone ran to get away from this huge black bear. After the bear finally went away, Eric decided to continue with his plan and proposed. After the shock wore off, I said yes!
Too Close for Comfort
Two-and-a-half years after we started dating, Justin took me on an amazingly scenic stroll. At one point, he got down on one knee and asked if I would marry him. I said, "Of course! Yes!" And he took my hand and put on the ring. I leaned in to cuddle with my new fiance, and at the same time, he leaned in to kiss my forehead -- this created a collision that ended with Justin getting a bloody nose. Fortunately, we got the bleeding under control long enough to tell everyone we knew we were engaged!
Lost and Found
I decided to take my bride-to-be back to the beach where we'd shared our first kiss and propose to her during sunset. I had the ring on my necklace because I thought it would be easier to take off, but I was a little nervous as I kneeled down, and when I tried to take it off, the necklace snapped. The next thing I remember: holding a broken necklace with no ring. We searched the sand inch by inch until nightfall, and then I decided we needed a metal detector. I quickly went out and bought one while my fiancee marked the spot, and it took us less than three minutes to locate the ring. Ticket to the pier: $2. Metal detector: $70. The feeling after we found the ring: Priceless.

"BeSt mArriAge prOpoSals 2009"

http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/articletkt.aspx?cp-documentid=23010912&GT1=32023

You Ought to Be in Pictures
The one thing my boyfriend, Josh, and I don't have in common is movies -- I love them, but he could care less. But for our third anniversary, Josh offered to take me to see one. When we walked into the theater, it was already dark, so we grabbed a seat near the front. Suddenly, a picture of us came up on the screen -- Josh had made a movie about us! He and some of our friends acted out scenes from our relationship, and as the movie ended, I turned and Josh was kneeling on the floor. He opened a box with a ring pop inside just as the words "WILL YOU MARRY ME?" flashed on the screen. Then the lights turned on and everyone yelled, "Surprise!" Both of our families and our closest friends were in the theater watching the whole time!
A Fish Tale
My boyfriend and I flew to Seattle and visited Pike Place Market, famous for its fishmongers who throw fish. One of the fishmongers asked me if I wanted to catch a fish. I was nervous that I'd drop it, but I caught the fish and held it above my head to the applause of onlookers -- and then someone shouted that there was something in the fish's mouth. I discovered a plastic bag, tore it open, and found a small box inside. I turned around to find my boyfriend down on one knee!
Love Note, Redux
My fiance and I started dating our senior year of high school. He was shy, so he wrote me a note and left it on my desk -- it was super-dorky and asked if I wanted to "go out with him, be together, or whatever." Then he wrote, "Sorry about the note. I really like you. Jim." Now we're both teachers, and when I got back to my apartment one day after school, there was an envelope taped to my door. As I began to read the note, I realized I'd read it somewhere before. He had rewritten that original note, but changed it to "Will you marry me, be together forever, or whatever. Sorry about the note. I really love you. Jim." He was waiting in my room to propose.
An Offer She Couldn't Refuse
My boyfriend, Mike, and I were at my cousin's apartment, hanging out with her and her husband and their baby, Ryan. Mike is Ryan's godfather. We were all in the living room playing with the baby, and my cousin asked us to change him into his pajamas. So I unsnapped his onesie and went to pull it off over his head, and I realized he had on another one underneath. That onesie had writing on it: "AUNT GG, WILL YOU MARRY MY GODFATHER?" I read it, and then I looked next to me, and there was Mike down on one knee with the ring! And, of course, I said yes!
An Unforgettable View
My boyfriend, Rob, is a pilot, and we often take trips in a Cessna airplane. One night, Rob told me he had rented a plane for the next morning for what I thought would just be a typical flight. After we were in the air for about five minutes, he switched radio frequencies. This wasn't a normal procedure, so I was thinking, Oh gosh, what's wrong? Then Rob asked me, "What's that down there?" I looked down to the ground below us, and written on a football field were the words "Will You Marry Me, Delilah?" Of course I said yes, and the news of our engagement was broadcast for all to hear on radio frequency 123.45.
Love in Any Language
One day, at the hospital where I work, a fellow nurse walked into the OR and handed me a card. One side of the card said, "Chinese," and the back had something written in Chinese. A moment later, another nurse came in and handed me another card. On one side it said, "German," and the other side said something in German. This continued for 45 minutes, with cards coming in all different languages. I didn't know what to think until one of my patients complained of stomach pain, and I lifted up her blanket to find a card that said, "French," which is a language I read well -- I realized that all of the cards said, "Will you marry me?" I opened the door to the recovery room and found my fiance holding the final card. One side said, "English," and when I flipped it over, it said, "Will you marry me?"
Well-Played Proposal
For my birthday, Dell surprised me with a weekend at this beautiful, secluded house. That night after dinner, we decided to play Monopoly. On one of my first rolls, I landed on "Chance." When I pulled the card, it said my name and I was so confused. Dell had designed the card and had written a letter to me! At the end of the card, it said, "If you'll look my way, there is one thing I want to ask..." And when I turned to look at Dell, he was on his knee and holding the ring.
Rules of Engagement
My boyfriend, Nate, had been deployed in Afghanistan for a year, so for my birthday, Nate's friends threw me a party so I wouldn't be alone. The last present I opened was a card that told me to check my closet upstairs. In the closet, I found a DVD with a note that said, "Watch immediately." It was a video of Nate in Afghanistan, holding a sign that said to go to the first place we met. We all drove over to the school where Nate and I had been kindergarten classmates, and then I saw a soldier on the playground. Before I could process what was happening, I realized it was Nate, who had somehow managed to come home. I started bawling on his shoulder, and then he got on his knee and pulled out a ring that was custom-made for me in Afghanistan.
A Walk to Remember
Daniel and I met when we both decided to hike the Appalachian Trail. We met only a few days into our separate hikes and developed a wonderful friendship as we walked across the country together. Six-and-a-half months later, we reached the summit of Mount Katahdin at the end of the trail, and one year after that, Daniel took me back to the trail for a picnic. After we ate, Daniel helped me to my feet and then dropped to one knee. He said if we could walk 2,000 miles together through rain, snow, stress fractures, lightning, bugs, and creepy townies, then there is no doubt that we could take on anything else that life has to offer, and he couldn't imagine any adventure he would want to embark on without me by his side.

오늘 헤어졌어요~ <3- 윤하

새하얀 머플러에 얼굴을 묻고
붉어진 눈을 깜빡이며 널 기다렸어
무슨 얘길 하고 픈지 그 말
알 것도 같은데 모르겠어
어색한 눈인사에 목이 메이고
한 발 물러 선 우리 둘 공간에 눈물 터지고
화가 나서 소리치듯 가란 내 말에
벌써 넌 아주 멀리 달아나 버렸어

오늘 헤어졌어요 우리 헤어졌어요
내 맘 알 것 같다면 옆에서 같이 울어줘요
나는 안되나봐요 역시 아닌가봐요
얼마나 더울어야 제대로 사랑할까요

귓가엔 심장소리 크게 울리고
지운 니 번호 지울수록 더욱 또렷해지고
언제부터 어디부터 멀어진건지
분명히 어제까진 날 사랑했는데

오늘 헤어졌어요 우리 헤어졌어요
내 맘 알 것 같다면 옆에서 같이 울어줘요
나는 안되나봐요 역시 아닌가봐요
얼마나 더 울어야 제대로 사랑할까요

참 좋았어 너무 좋아서 더 아프죠
사랑에 또 속은 내가 미워

그냥 나오지 말 걸 그냥 아프다 할 걸
우리 사랑한 기억 그게 널 붙잡아 줄 텐데
너는 내일을 살고 나는 오늘을 살아
아무도 아무것도 날 웃게할 수는 없어

오늘 헤어졌어요 우리 헤어졌어요
내 맘 알 것 같다면 옆에서 같이 울어줘요
나는 안되나봐요 역시 아닌가봐요 얼마나
더 울어야 제대로 사랑 할까요
           

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Merry Christmas!!~ <3

don't ask me why...

...it just hurts... haunting me day and night...

***

so cold...
so empty...
so lonely...
another cruel winter to face...

this torture...
this nightmare...
this cage...
an inescapable labyrinth...

a year...
a month...
a day...
each fearful minute...

one word...
one shatter...
one tear...
numerous shards of a broken heart...

고슴도치 딜레마-딜라이트

널 보면 두근두근
언제나 조금 조금
조금 더 다가가고파

네게는 삐죽삐죽
가시는 아파아파
너를 더 아프게만 해

내짧은 팔 너를 안고 싶어도 항상
미안해 미안해 미안해 미안해
네게는 상처만 남아

바보같아 정말
네게 했던 말은 모두 거짓말이야 정말
가까이 가까이 가까이
갈수록 너를 다치게 하는 나

바보같아 정말
네게 했던 말은 모두 거짓말이야 정말
바라고 바라고 바라던
사람은 바로 너 뿐이야

널 향해 하루종일
언제나 매일 매일
마음이 자라 날수록

가까이갈 수 없는
난 작은 고슴도치
너를 더 아프게만 해

내짧은 팔 너를 안고 싶어도 항상
미안해 미안해 미안해 미안해
네게는 상처만 남아

바보같아 정말
네게 했던 말은 모두 거짓말이야 정말
가까이 가까이 가까이
갈수록 너를 다치게 하는 나

바보같아 정말
네게 했던 말은 모두 거짓말이야 정말
바라고 바라고 바라던
사람은 바로 너 뿐이야

바보같아
바보같아 정말
모두 거짓말
가까이 가까이 가까이
갈수록 너를 다치게 하는 나

바보같아 정말
네게 했던 말은 모두 거짓말이야 정말

 바라고 바라고 바라던
사람은 너 뿐이야

바보같아

siLence

when you can look into your heart... and find your inmost desires..when you let your guard down and feel the remorse wash over you... why... why??

World's Outsider

There's a gaping hole inside
One that I've been tryin' to hide
Why can't you sense it
Can't you see it

I keep runnin' from my fears
Holding back the many tears
Felt so empty
Over the centuries

Just like oil is to water
Or like north is to the south
I'm world's outsider
Just don't belong in this world

The days are full of sighs
I pass by unrecognized
Nobody knows
It's how it goes

Drowning in this well unending
Acceptance still be pending
What to do now
I don't know how


Just like oil is to water
Or like north is to the south

I'm world's outsider
Just don't belong in this world

Something tells me someone's out there who can come and save me
Bring me back to this world
My story unfurled
Something in me wants to open then to break free
And help release me
From this prison. . .

Hola!

Hola! Me llamo Emily. Vivo en Albania. Hablo ingles, coreano, y un poco espanol. Quiero aprendo mas espanol.
Soy baja, joven, y impaciente.

Adios!

little bOOK!

haha
I made this like really cute book and.. lol, i can't help it but to make another. but with cooler colors. not saying this one's not nice.. hehehehehehe
I LOVE it!

now, to decide what to do with it

bEtrayal

i trusted you with my life...
why'd you have to forsake me...
why'd you have to turn your back on me...
you end what you've started like this?
now i can't trust anyone...
i can't look into the eyes of another...
and know that sincerity lies underneath...
i can't hold the hands of another...
and feel that they'll be there forever...
i can't give my heart to another...
in hopes that it'll remain...
unscathed...
at least my love was true...
at least my love for you...
was pure...
down to every drop...
and you've taken that...
and thrown it away...
now i'm left...
in utter despair...
i wished you die...
but then.. so will I...
I wished you experience excruciating pain...
but then.. everybody will at some point...
i learned this was life...
and tried to move on...
and guess what sucker...
i did...

SIck!!!

So yeah.. I've been sick for the past... 2-3 days. At first is was slight fever and that bitter taste at the back of my throat. Then is was headache and coughing. Then it my whole body ached as did my head (which I thought was going to burst wide open). And my cough and throat is still killing me. Gotta keep taking iburprofen... the effects of the last two pills are wearing out.. xD

Haha, anyway. Let this be a lesson for you all. Take care of yourself. Or you'll end up like me: gargling salt water every few hours (it's actually quite effective), and wishing your head would start throbbing.. not to mention regretting not dressing up as warmly for the past few days. I deserve this... ㅠㅠ waaaaaaaa

Some tips for you all.. so as not to get sick.

1. Dress up warmly!
2. Wash your hands every chance you get to avoid any spreading of germs to others and to yourself.
3. Get plenty of sleep: It gives your body much rest and strength.

There has to be more but I just can't think of any more. Here are some tips to get recuperate.

1. Drink plenty water and warm liquids... you know... not counting your pee...
2. Sleep and don't do things and avoid things that might worsen your condition. For example: walking out in the cold in your undies, drinking iced tea, or extensive "screen time". "Screen time" is a word that my dad invented which means any time spent on computer or tv or anything with a 'screen'. Screens may be hurtful. So don't indulge yourself in these too much.
3. Gargle!
4. Stay clean. Take a nice, hot shower, and get dry as quickly as you can so you don't catch another cold. But then, wait a while until you're feeling at least a teensy bit better. I felt horribly filthy when I woke up this morning with a headache, sore throat, and hair that hadn't been washed in 24+ hours. But I waited a while until the pain subsided and I had enough strength to drag myself to the shower. It was so worth it though. 

c-C-C-oLd!

Today was... cold. And my throat hurtses too! Waaaaa. Plus, I've got like some events coming up where I'll be torturing people with my singing voice. xD Pray for me! I know how nervous I can get in those situations.
Eeek!

rain

it's raining now. thunder and everything too! isn't it weird how people get all depressed and gloomy and stuff whenever it's rainy? weirdly enough, i actually LIkE that. xD
haha no question! oh well.. haha had a quite.. entertaining day. i'm just gonna watch anastasia and sleep. gah! i love that movie

...

:D